Tuesday, March 31, 2009

This too shall pass, but this morning is fired.

I'm feeling really strained and overextended today. A lot of this was because practice was really draining for me yesterday, but the mountain of housekeeping-type-crap I had to do this morning contributed.

Reasons why I'm feeling low today:

1. Last night at practice I had some kind of asthma-like event. I've never had asthma, so I'm not sure if I've just developed it or if there's another name for non-sufferers who suddenly can't breathe at all. I haven't been able to breathe through my nose for almost a month, so perhaps it's an allergy thing... either way it was really frightening and I'm scared about it happening again.

All I know is that I was having a tough time keeping up because I couldn't get enough air, and then suddenly I REALLY couldn't get enough air, and then I felt like I was getting absolutely no air at all. The little primitive survival part of me totally freaked out and went "I'm DYING!!!! OMGOMGOMG" and I had a panic attack. I spent a good chunk of the next fifteen minutes crying like a baby on Holly Nass's shoulder, and alternated skating laps alone and participating in the slower drills because I kept having wheezing fits all night.

Oh, and when I totally lost my shit I also blabbed about every insecurity I have about my skating (mostly into Nass's armpit) so I'm still feeling embarrassed and childish and whiny. I'm trying to actively focus on all the nice things she said, and all the "this isn't your fault - your body needed air" comments she made, because she's totally right. I think I'll internalize that more with time, but that's definitely an uphill battle for me.

2. (largely resolved) I couldn't get a doctor's appointment to see what the hell happened to my body last night. The lady on the phone didn't quite seem to understand the urgency of "OMG I couldn't breathe WTF?" and was suggesting appointments for, say, NEXT MONTH. I was so pissed and tired and grouchy that I totally cried after the phone call. However, the Nurse Practitioner in the office called back and offered to double-book me for the first appointment tomorrow so I could squeeze in early. I don't even have to miss any of my classes because it's during my prep. This has taken some of the load off, and I'm grateful. Thank goodness for people overhearing phone calls in crowded offices.

3. I tried to see what the procedure was for paying my current outstanding bill for grad school with the voucher from my student teacher. This involves getting three different offices to agree upon the same issue, and I'm unable to reach the right people in any of the three offices. In my fantasy world, I go to class on Thursday, hand in the voucher, they say "KTHXBYE" and I've paid for the class. Apparently this is only possible in a land where leprechauns ride unicorns who vomit sunshine and piss wishes.

So yeah, being emotionally vulnerable followed by stupid bureaucracy crap is a recipe for frustration, grumpiness, and a lousy morning. I want to eat cake and hug my dog while Steve makes me laugh and the cat meows insistently for more food.

Monday, March 23, 2009


Another skater called me "the bulldozer in a tutu" today. That was pretty awesome.

Saturday, March 21, 2009


Tonight at 7PM I get to play roller derby, on a team, in front of my parents and friends. I've been waiting for this for a long time.

Thursday, March 19, 2009

Come to my first bout this Saturday or I will have you shot.

My first bout with BDD is this freakin' Saturday!!! Please come, wear pink, make signs, and cheer for my team, the Nutcrackers. Info below:


Doors at 4 pm
Shriners Auditorium, Wilmington, MA
Tickets $14 in advance, $16 at the door (good for both bouts of the double header)
Season tickets now available!

Bout #1: 5 pm: Boston Massacre vs.
Charm City Roller Girls (Baltimore, Maryland)
Bout #2: 7 pm: Nutcrackers vs.

Tuesday, March 10, 2009

Security needed for BDD's bout on 3/21

Boston Derby Dames need people to work security for the March 21st bout. It's a really easy job where you get to be right next to the action and keep our paying customers from getting on the track, in the locker rooms, or in the ladies' faces. It's actually fun and we all get to hang out. 

You also get to see a lot of derby action for free.

Who would be able to help us out

Tuesday, March 3, 2009


I can't stop singing this stupid song. What does it even MEAN??!?!?!? It makes no sense! I mean, if the fish in the sandwich were taken from the fish on the wall, how does McDonald's figure into the process? If the sandwich came from another fish, how does giving the sandwich to the fish on the wall solve the problem? Who is that bearded dude, and why is he giving the other dude such a knowing look? Isn't that a plastic fish?

Math is hard! My head is going to explode. There are no answers in this commercial, only questions!

Monday, March 2, 2009

ATTN: my first bout is coming up. Please come!!!

Please please please mark your calendars! I'm skating in my first Boston Derby Dames bout with the Nutcrackers on March 21, and I'd be thrilled to see some familiar faces in the audience.

Info below:


Doors at 4 pm
Shriners Auditorium, Wilmington, MA
Tickets $14 in advance, $16 at the door (good for both bouts of the double header)
Season tickets now available!

Bout #1: 5 pm: Boston Massacre vs. Charm City Roller Girls (Baltimore, Maryland)
Bout #2: 7 pm: Nutcrackersvs. Cosmonaughties

Bout #1: Almost two years since first facing off against (and n-a-r-r-o-w-l-y beating) Charm City, the Boston Massacre once again hosts Baltimore's hard-hitting all-stars. Read the April 14, 2007 bout recap or the recap of the Wicked Pissah's April 2008 smackdown of Charm City's champion Night Terrors in a Season Two expo bout.

Halftime set by While Rome Burns.

Bout #2: And kicking off the home team season, the second bout of the evening sees the Nutcrackers take on the Cosmonaughties for the first time since Season Two's playoff bout in April 2008. The home teams have come out of the off-season with seriously shaken up rosters, new leadership, and still-untested rookies. Will the Nuts have an advantage with a veteran-heavy team? Or will the Cosmos capitalize on the energy of their freshmeat skaters?

After party in the Fez Room with DJ John Barera

Please come! I can't say how much it would mean to me!