Stupid headache.

My head hurts. However, I'm excited about P-town. I wonder if Commercial street is actually as flat as it seems... I'd really love to spend as much of this week on my skates as possible, seeing as I'm missing three practices. :/

I'm really bummed about that. I loved Wedesday's practice, and I felt like I was doing a pretty decent job up until I ran out of steam for hell. Funny how hell was the thing I was most confident about until I learned that my form was all wrong. I'll get there with more practice (and more PT for my damned knee). I just hope that missing three practices won't put me too far behind.

Even though I need a lot of work, I always forget that I'm getting better until I go to a practice where it's mostly new girls. I'm so glad I had a chance to be at practice while the Massacre was in Ohio - it reminded me that I'm improving. I always forget that there are so few new girls compared to the number of vets until nearly all of the vets are gone.

I can't wait to be a really good skater. I'm so glad that all this practice time is helping me as much as it is. I love the fact that I'm learning a new skill, and that it's so much hard work. I love leaving practice hungry and tired, and I love waking up sore in the morning. I suppose this is what the vets mean when they talk about being new and full of energy, so I plan to ride this for as long as I can.

I must sound like a total nut, what with liking the whole pain and soreness aspect of derby... I wonder if contact will give me the same "good pain" feeling or if it will kick my ass in a bad way. I'll find that out soon enough, I suppose.

I guess I just haven't done something quite this hard before, and I'm amazed at how much it's making me change for the better.